that is so YesteRday ~

went driving lesson as usual; tired n bored of it alreadyyy

felt exhausted for the past few days
with this n that going on
with the MISUNDERSTANDING;; come on lah..srsly, i tot you are matured enough to see through things..haih, im disappointed with you
nothing to keep me busy;
hence making me thinking about 'those' again
why har?

i myself dunno whats the answer ::

perhaps the loneliness?

perhaps the boredom?

perhaps im just plain naive?

perhaps im just plain stupid?

perhaps what?

aigoo...

i know you,
youre supposed to be more matured than i am,
so thats why i thought you understand..
but no,
you didnt
not even a single thing
why is that?
i dunno
why do i even care?
i dont have any idea ~

when i dont care anymore

you will spark all 'those' things again

do you have to?

i mean;

youre already in your happily ever after

really,

im disapointed with you

what can i say more?

that is just that,

nothing more

dont you see????

how could you did this to me?

im not that low,

ive seen sad endings before my very own eyes

you didnt know that dont you?

well i dont expect you to

actually

i shouldnt expect anything from you

fyi, i dont want to take away your happily ever after from you

i dont want that to happen just because of me,

not that isee that happen..lol

it's just that,

i dont want that to happen to you

i know my limits,

so should you

why did this even started?

this is just going to be another detour,

i know this

it wont last long

longest would be just in few months;;

again, not that i care so much

but

sadly enough

for the time being,

i DO care

so, why?

im still looking for the answer in this pitch black alley in front of me

is there,

anyone who's willing to show the light?

hahaha im starting to be poetic :P

well,

i just hope this will go away soon ;;

soon enough for me to get tired of it

enough of my ranting tonight..

haih..ive been sighing to myself a lot these few days
this mkes me like a grown up woman hahahaha~